Shades of Blue Book
Kavita Bhardwaj is an 18-year-old IIT aspirant and a school topper, who backs out from the exam at the last moment and takes the drastic step of not going to college, leaving everyone around her feeling disappointed. In the middle of all the protests and fighting with the parents she figures out that she has PCOD, a condition not very serious, but makes her feel frustrated with all it’s symptoms. The illness makes her moods erratic and behaviour annoying so much so that she blames all her life decisions on this one disorder.
But with all her behaviour and her circumstances, Kavita only feels one constant emotion and that is guilt. She feels guilty for not being normal, for being short-tempered, for letting her parents down by not even sitting for the exam and later when she has a start-up job, and comes close to realising her the work that gives her happiness and finding the guy who makes her feel loved, she feels guilty for it too. She in short feels guilty for her life, a life that her older brother Siddharth had lost six years ago.
Will she be able to allow life in all its shades, to give her happiness, when even the feeling of sadness has eluded her? Can one sail through life by being so careful and not feeling too much at all?